Saturday, 10 February 2018

I had the most beautiful ending to something horrific.

It feels like forever since I've sat down and wrote something out of my mind for you to read, but this post is something that I didn't want to share with you at first as it was very personal to me and at the time was the last thing on my mind.

Back in October I mentioned that I had a house fire with my boyfriend and his family. It was a horrible, completely horrible. We stayed in a hotel for 2 months which felt like we were so distant from reality and that we were being pushed out of our home, but realistically we had no choice. It sounds quite fun doesn't it? Staying in a hotel for 2 months, Premier Inn to be exact. Having that 5 star bed and the amazing shower. It was okay whilst it lasted. It got to the point where we were sick of unlimited breakfast and sick of  waking up away from home; It got boring for us. I think we got back just after fireworks night which felt like such a relief because we did not want to spending our Christmas in a hotel, away from everyone.

I loved being home and being able to go downstairs in my pj's grabbing a cup of tea and then rushing back upstairs to get into bed with my boyfriend. It was the best feeling when we got home, everything was back to normal..

December 12th, was possibly the worst day of my life and a day I never ever want to remember. My boyfriend was in a horrific car crash, it haunts me even saying "car crash". I won't go into the crash details but I will just say it was f***ing horrible, something even the emergency services felt traumatized by. Owen (boyfriend) was flown to Cambridge hospital where he was put into a medically induced coma. Something I never thought that would ever happen to me, and I wouldn't wish this on anyone ever. Owen had severe head injuries and although as horrible as it sounds, head injuries was the only thing he suffered with to begin with. He was put into a coma to ensure his brain pressure was kept very low otherwise he would be at high risk of a stroke and I think you can guess what would happen after that.

We were given the dreadful chat before we got to see Owen. The Neuro-surgeons came into the room we were waiting in and asked us to sit down, and you know that when they sit down that's not something that means "he's going to be coming home today, just give us a few hours". Nope. We were told that the next 72 hours are going to be the critical stages and that we could either lose Owen now or he could fight it. We got through those 72 hours, hardly any sleep and not much food/drink within us but we got there.

Owen fought so hard throughout his journey in hospital and we had some of the most horrible days but there were also the good days. The days where everyone become closer and stuck together. Everyone was there for Owen and supported him throughout the whole of his journey which I loved so much. Fundraising pages were set up for Owen where we raised quite a lot of money to help us stay with Owen in Cambridge before he was a little better. We stayed in the hospital everyday and every night until we knew that he was going to be okay.

Owen woke up from his coma on 20th December which was the best feeling no one could ever explain. The happiness I felt when Owen woke up was something I can't explain only with the love I have for that boy. Owen continued to stay in hospital up til the 10th January where he finally came home.

 The journey we went through with Owen, in my own words are un-describable. The fear, the nerves and the sadness will forever be stuck with me now. I even think about it today and look at Owen and I say to him "don't you ever leave me like that again, and if you do, take me with you."

Now onto the best ending...

I spent Christmas and my 18th birthday with Owen in hospital. A few days before my birthday I noticed that I'd been feeling quite sick lately and I wasn't myself...

On 30th December I found out that I'm having a baby! It was a complete shock to me, and at 18 years old my first thoughts were "how the hell am I going to be coping with this on top of Owen?!" but then I told Owen the news and he told me to go for it and that he'd be by my side throughout the whole thing.

I'm due a little baby in August and I couldn't be more excited than to share the journey with you! It's taken a while for it to sink in for me but now I'm so determined and excited for the future. Owen and I have been through so much together and I feel like this baby is 100% a gods blessing. There's been so much happiness flying around our lives this year.

It's been the best ending to something truly horrific.

Kay x

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