Tuesday, 17 October 2017

long time, back to blogging.

To say that these past couple of months have been absolute hell would be a complete understatement. I can’t even remember how to do this whole blogging thing as it feels like forever since I last sat down and actually wrote something. 

I’m not going to sit here and write some bullshit story about how sorry I am for not posting anything because blogging has been the least of my worries lately. 

But in all honesty, these past few months actually, have been quite the sort and it’s given me some sort of brain wave and a kick in the teeth/head, whatever sounds better. 

I’ve found a boy, woooo! That’s not the main thing, but he’s great, he makes me happy and he has the kindest, most loving family ever. However, a few weeks ago we had a house fire. It started in his room which is absolutely awful and we’re never going to know how the fire actually started which is annoying, it’s sort of knowing something but not knowing it at the same time. Does that even make any sense? Who knows. 

We’ve been stuck in a hotel for a good month now which is great for the comfy bedding and lush showers, but it makes you feel so isolated and low. I’ve been distant from my family due to helping out his family as it’s times like these where they need me a lot. It’s been stressful sorting out everything whilst actually knowing that there has been a fire in their house, their home, the place they go to for comfort and family time. Using the hotel car park is not the one for that. 

My boyfriend lost quite a lot in his room, which is so heartbreaking. I lost all my makeup etc. It was so horrifying going into his room to see everything so black, so destroyed. The place where we used to run up to to chill or just get away from everything. It’s gone. 

It was horrible to see his parents and everyone else so upset. It made me realise deeply how much I care about them and just how big of an impact they have on my life even though I’ve known them the shortest. 

It was definitely something like this that made me realise just how important family is, I never in my life thought I would be involved in a fire but it happened. You can’t change the past. But the main thing is that we’re all okay. Everyone is safe and still standing. 

It seems to me that everyone has to go through something bad just to see the good in everything. It took a fire for me to realise how short and fragile our lives really are. We take almost everything for granted but we never stop for a moment to really think about how lucky all of us really are, how lucky we are to have homes, to have a family, to have people around us. 

It doesn’t matter if we have 1 million pounds or 1p, it’s what matters inside. What makes us happy, the people who make us happy and how grateful and lucky we are to be surrounded by such positive and inspiring people, the people who live their lives to the fullest, the ones who don’t care about anyone else’s opinions but their own preferences. 

Everyone is worth it. 

On a positive note, I stared a new job which I’m absolutely loving! I quit my other job as it wasn’t the best, I didn’t particularly like coming home every night smelling of fish and chips and having to wash my hair about twenty times in one night. It was awful but my new job is amazing. I love it, I’ve already met some amazing people who never fail to make me smile everyday. 

I’ve also got two gorgeous rabbits!! My step mum and dad bought them for me as a gift for getting the job. They we originally named Bella and Snowy, but we found out that they’re actually two boys, so I got to name one of them my most favourite character ever. Thumper. They’re now named thumper and Rupert. They’re my babies, they’re just too cute. 

There is always something good in the bad. 

If anything, myself and my boyfriends family have grown closer. It made us realise how much we needed each other in times like these. We’ve grown such a good bond together, and I love it. I love being welcomed into a home and know that I’m safe and loved. 

We’re all going away next month for a nice get away but it’ll be near Christmas therefore a lot of blogging photos will take place due to the style we’re going to be staying in, (I’m not saying anything though.)

I hope there’s still a fair few of you that still read my blog. I haven’t been on here in forever, I hope the cobwebs are now gone and we’re all back to normal. Maybe? Who knows. I’m hoping I get the time to post something soon, it depends on how busy it’s going to be. It’s a rollercoaster at the moment for everyone, but it’s going to come to an end soon, everything will be back to normal soon. 

Life is a bitch, you just gotta have the strength to fight it. 

lots of love,

kay x

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